Waffling in THREE dimensions.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Truthies

I didn't go today. I probably should have, but it was easier to roll over, easier to hide. There is only one more week, not including today, of regular church services, after that is general conference. That counselor wants to meet with me again, I'm not planning on going. I have nothing to say to him. There has been no "progress", only more questions. I've realized that any acceptance of their truth requires a fundamental rejection of other truths, some of which I hold dear. They purport to have the fullness, but there are still revelations to be had, perhaps they mean _fullest_; it is so often confused! Perhaps I am confusing the official doctrine on the claims of accuracy with regards to exclusive rights of revelations and such with the assertions of the members, who often know little but speak much of it, or something clever like that. Imagine I wrote something clever there. In any case, such devotion requires a disavowal of other truths, as the Gospel is quite exclusive, to the whites until the seventies or so. Perhaps I am wrong about that date, I have not been keeping up with the lessons on President Kimball. If all it takes a personal revelation of truth manifested as a warm sensation, then I shall bare testimony in this moment with great certainty that ninjas are alive and well today! I can't believe it sometimes, but I feel it inside my heart.Also Snakes on Planes. But the world may disagree with that. We're supposed to live in the world but not be of it. I suppose that makes me peculiar.

I am somewhat pressed for time, desiring to be clear of the premises before any of my more devout roommates can come home and pressure me to attend whatever obligations I was not informed of prior. Oh, the pressure. I hate it most. I flee from it, and shall shortly. That shall be my official excuse. After all, I have nothing new to report. Of new things, I have something old I'd like to share. I wrote it last fall, late at night. My final project was due in a religion class (which I am now retaking, got a D- the first time :-)) the next day and like always, I had procrastinated, hard. I used some extra discipline that night; it was a peculiar experience. In the course of writing, I had, perhaps, an epiphany, of sorts. I only recently typed it up.
Whether it was inspired by spirits or demons, I present it to you, Internets. I don't know what else to say about it, it was an interesting experience, like my hand was writing on its own. Thoughts flooded my mind. There are at least two paged filled with scribbles, I couldn't make them all out, but this is what I did. Anyways, here it is. Be gentle.

What if Christ’s Plan is tentative? Subject to Change An Active Dynamic Battle, with Him, as a Quasi-Human Leading. He knows what he wants but not all the bumps along the way. There is active strategic Battle of Good v. Evil Where Satan can much things up. Maybe this is the explanation of why Diety would allow fifeteen hundred years between testaments of His Life, why else would he abandon His children for so long, if He really does love them all equally

Maybe it is like a game to them. Some sort of war/strategy game for the souls of men or just for fun Could the Christ + AntiChrist be friends? Rivals? Our Doctrine says that they are Brothers. Perhaps They were these things at some point. How can a Messiah who loves everyone make an exception for HIS enemy when he says we must love ours Would the Christ save the AntiChrist? Is a Christ completely necessary? Can you Atone for your own sins? Take them yourself? You committed them, shouldn’t you be the one punished for them. Was Jesus the first to claim Divinity? Does or could the atonement cover those that did not receive bodies? If we are all children of 1 GOD including Christ + the AntiChrist, all made in his image then must’nt In God have been some aspect of us? If we are all from Him wouldn’t We also be in a way a part of Him or at least some aspect of ourselves? Including Christ + the AntiChrist? Does GOD himself contain all things both good + evil as the system he created does? Duality of God Are the natures of good + evil limited strictly to humans or sentient beings? Or simply living things or can objects of symbols like a gun or a flag have a divine moral standing. Could these or would these things be held responsible or punished or what not for the actions they facilitate? What about those people that lived so far long ago, the virtuous pagans who died without hearing “the gospel?” Do they receive another chance to hear it? Just reincarnated until they get the chance to make a choice, in a way being immortal until they decide to not be immortal or saved + whatnot, would such people even be people? For why would they exist if not to gain eternal life? And if they had no chance to save their souls, yet they did live and eat + breed then did they really have or need souls at all? And if the body + spirit are an eternally linked unit, supposing such people did

Reoccur until they could exercise their agency

What of their body’s? Surely, there are people alive today that will never hear our gospel, yet they live, why? Will they continue until they reach it or must they learn it all in paradise/prison

Could reattempts to hear the gospel be the cause of over population? As more and more spirits run back up to ride the slide again? What about those that lived in the Dark ages under the Great + Abomidable Church? Would they be the same as such virtuous pagans Or would the distorted view they were offered be enough to decide their salvation by acceptance/refusal? What of when they could not refuse? As it was law, would refusal be an act of righteousness by turning away from corruption or one of ignorance because they were not then turning to God. Why are so few distininctions made between the GodHead. “The LORD” is very vague in this manner, almost to the point where it seems flakey. If God Kew the Bible was going to be corrupted, wh didn’t he stop it? He surely must have been able to, or He would not be God. If He created the Book of Mormon as an alternative/supplementary Gospel and obviously wanted it preserved why did the Bible not receive so much pampering? Why two books? If two, why not more? Why so long? If he will not intervene to save His own words, why should He care for ours in prayer? Perhaps the Bible should be viewed as the foundation of the B.M that would introduce the History + some [garbled] The Bible became widespread so the BOM could be widespread so all those people could finally get their chance

If He felt all the pain and suffering, Did He feel all the joy and Happiness too? Wouldn’t that be necessary to be our Mediator?

1 comment:

BeeKeeper said...

We are going to have to go to dinner and talk sometime next month. I hope you would be comfortable talking to me, openly, honestly, forthrightly. You are recognizing and asking the questions at half the age I was when I started recognizing and asking the questions. I asked the questions only after the path of historical investigation led me to "dare" ask the questions. Most never dare ask the questions, because the asking of the questions is a sign of "pride," vanity, or perhaps even Satan directing your thinking, tempting you, or (gasp!) taking over your soul.

J. Reuben Clark (Counselor in two first presidencies - let's just call him Clark) said, "If we have the truth, it cannot be harmed by investigation. If we have not the truth, it ought to be harmed."

The real thing to fear is not asking the questions. If you give up yourself and allow yourself to be directed by others on what is okay to ask and what is not okay to ask, you have lost your soul.

Galileo Galilei said, "I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use." I believe that it is a greater "sin" to let someone else dictate to you what to think than it is to think for yourself, regardless of the outcome (unless of course you decide to torture kitties ;-) ).